As we are winding down our weekend together with the ladies from CFH, I find myself faced with a question I have had to ask myself several times this last year.....is finishing school should finishing school be a goal in my life right now?
As Hannah moved closer, and another baby was coming, I asked the question. As Abby got a new job and needed a new wardrobe (NOW), I asked myself the question. Now, as I consider the opportunity to invest my time into this ministry, and into the lives of other women/families I am asking myself the question again.
It has been an anchor I have clung to while raising a family...someday I would go back....someday I would prove to myself and to the watching world (whoever they may be) that I had a brain between my ears and would have the paper to prove it.
As I have pursued this goal many things have been affected...I was not able to get totally behind the birth of Aviva (in order to be the Sovta I longed to be in my grandchildren's lives I could only see school as an impediment). I find I am not as available to make care packages for those of you who travel far far away... or even write notes of encouragement, and I am not as available to enjoy the many changes in our family. I am truly conflicted....to surrender this dream is HUGE. But the God I serve is huge as well.
So, unselfishly I would covet your prayers on this matter
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